Sort of, yeah. It was kind of funny actually, I mean...
[he rubs his temples]
I cursed in front of her and shit, the look on her face, she was horrified. She even called me Edward instead of just Ed and I swear I felt like she was going to ground me for a month or something and I apologized and everything, ended up swearing again which made for a pathetic apology. I've never had to pay attention to things like that. Watching my language in front of my mom, you know? She's been gone for so long and I cursed all the time in front of Granny, but... she's my mom and...
She... she just laughed and...
[He manages something like a laugh and his voice starts cracking. Ed wipes unconsciously at his face, completely unaware that he started crying at all.]
I haven't... I haven't heard her laugh like that in years. I was scared I might've forgotten what it sounded like, too, but... [His lip trembles and he ducks his head down, his entire body shaking with every breath he takes. The tears haven't stopped and it doesn't look like they're going to stop soon.] I didn't. It was exactly like I remembered. Everything... the color of her hair and eyes and --
[Breathing. How does he do that again? Suddenly it hurts. Everything hurts. His chest aches and his joints are stiff and his throat feels like it's closing up and he's choking back sobs and FUCK when did he even start crying?]
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Date: 2011-11-18 08:24 am (UTC)[he rubs his temples]
I cursed in front of her and shit, the look on her face, she was horrified. She even called me Edward instead of just Ed and I swear I felt like she was going to ground me for a month or something and I apologized and everything, ended up swearing again which made for a pathetic apology. I've never had to pay attention to things like that. Watching my language in front of my mom, you know? She's been gone for so long and I cursed all the time in front of Granny, but... she's my mom and...
She... she just laughed and...
[He manages something like a laugh and his voice starts cracking. Ed wipes unconsciously at his face, completely unaware that he started crying at all.]
I haven't... I haven't heard her laugh like that in years. I was scared I might've forgotten what it sounded like, too, but... [His lip trembles and he ducks his head down, his entire body shaking with every breath he takes. The tears haven't stopped and it doesn't look like they're going to stop soon.] I didn't. It was exactly like I remembered. Everything... the color of her hair and eyes and --
[Breathing. How does he do that again? Suddenly it hurts. Everything hurts. His chest aches and his joints are stiff and his throat feels like it's closing up and he's choking back sobs and FUCK when did he even start crying?]